Have you ever wanted to get something out there like really bad? (who the fuck am I asking?) I mean I guess that's how artists feel most of the time....but the point is I feel like that...I really really want to sing that song Broken -by Bjork...I don't what it is but there's something that just makes me want to scream like that...to be honest, I don't even know if I want it to be heard, even though I highly doubt I'll be able to avoid that but, I don't really care, I don't want feedback, I just want to get it off my chest and I think that singing is the only way I can do this...I can just let everything out like that....why can't I just scream? I can scream just like that in public and I can sing, it's not hurting anybody so why don't I see anybody else doing it? is it the crowd thing? like when there's a big crowd and they're all clapping, I mean somebody have to had started the clap for everyone else to follow and go along with it....and if everyone does it then there's nothing wrong, but if nobody else would have followed that first clapper things would look different right?
you would think that this one clapper is fucking crazy or something....but he's not...he just started something no one else dared to follow...nevermind start.
So what if I started singing? just everytime I felt like it no matter where I am I start singing....
Right now I'm in a computer lab at the university campus.... there's about 6 people here, and there's a sign with all the rules on it. One of the rules is "no talking" but I don't see where it says "no singing" ...so should i do it? i don't know if I should....but I could...I know that much....I could....so why don't I?
is it common courtesy? u know, just so I don't bother other people...but they don't give a fuck when they talk on their cell phones even though they are breaking 2 of the rules stipulated on the dry erase board. I wouldn't be breaking any rules if I sang....so...let's see...no I won't I tried, I sang a little bit...but it was pretty low and I think only one person heard me but she didn't really notice...or seem to care....but I want to sing louder than that....instead what am I doing? I'm typing....and that's sad...
